What do you know?
What can you do? The only thing I have ever been able to do without
extended knowledge is operate machinery. I can sit in any machine
you put me in and within a few hours work it like a pro; in some
cases better than those that have done it for years. I can sit in a
58 ton machine and feel it like it is a part of my body. I can feel
the slightest vibration even though the entire machine is vibrating
all over. I can feel it. I have tried to explain this to people I
have trained but they don't get it. I got a job once by telling the
interviewer that I don't know how to operate but I know how to feel
the machine. I replaced their operator permanently in 6 days; he had
been operating this particular machine for 5 years. He was mad. I
understand but he couldn't feel the machine. So how does this
pertain to a literacy journey? I don't know other than I want more
knowledge of the things that interest me. I love some many subjects,
and explore so many things in this world and I want to know more. I
want to know why mound ants, mound. I want to know why moss grows
where it grows. I want to know why we dream; and why we fail. I
want to know why a porn star is a porn star. I want to know why
everyone thinks I am weird. I want to know why I need to have a job
and why we need money.
I think most of all
I want to express myself better. I have all these things, ideas,
swimming around in my head. I want to know how to calm my brain that
is going a thousand miles per hour all the time. There is not enough
time for all these things in one day, or a year, or a lifetime.
Maybe, through my
college experience, I will find a way. I will find a focus. Perhaps
I will meet the right instructor to help me in this journey. I am
hoping I can get up the guts to be more sociable with my fellow
students; and learn from them. I am hoping for long lasting
friendships with like minded people; and even those that are not so
like minded. I honestly like to know both sides of any issue or
idea.
